Wednesday, July 13, 2005
As I was browsing Friendster... I felt so jealous'd. Haha. Well I like a guy, somehow that guy... argh nvm. It's so trivia anyway. I mean.. it's not like he knows I like him or sth and we aren't even talking like normal friends are talking. My like for him is just plain admiration for his cool looks and I guess that's that. Sometimes he's hot, sometimes it's the way he walks or talks.. So I guess it doesn't matter if he is giving testimonials to a close friend of mine. haha. I mean... jealousy can just occur in many diff ways...just like when Naq talks about how cool Edison Chen was and I felt jealous which is frucking foolish of me... then when Zizie said that Shawn's her bf, haha I just had to object to that when the actual fact that it didn't give me any great impact in life or anything... or when Hanna always gets praised for her good essays when actually she really is good and I am jealous'd of that... and one of the diff ways is this feeling... I suddenly felt so hot up my head.
Back to the Friendster thing. Soon after I realised, it's actually kinda foolish to feel that way coz it's not as if he's fully mine or watsoeva... haha. Oh welll... teenagers, wat dya expect. Anyway, I'll just brush it off my shoulders and think about Jay and only Jay. For the time being, I am officially obsessed with Chou and no doubt I can't deny that.
Yesterday, I was typing about yesterday on this very blog went suddenly after I finished typing out wat I wanted... my foolish deft fingers just had to click onto the X button. And bullshyt knows wat I felt after that. Haha. I just slept off my anger and forgot to wake up at the correct time next. Haha. Funny. Me.
And fuck it. I nearly slept in Humans and vouch never to do such things again. Goodness, if I had slept I am going to blame myself entirely if I fluked my O levels.
POP rehearsal serves no purpose when everyone always delays time. Haha. I was kinda pissed when one blames for one when there's a mistake going on. I mean. everyone has flaws and everyone learn from it. You don't need to prolong the thing and elaborate or go into further details or sometimes you just get carried away with some stupid flaw. Haha. God noes what ish I am talking about rite now. Just that the pissing off part was towards my old mates... practically delaying whenever they want to and are not considerate if one needs to go off early or watsoeva.
Ok I guess Jay's entirely in my heart rite now.
He is forever in my heart.
Will always be and will always support him and his music.
Acting Career? Whatever he wants.. I'll go support him.
Definitely definitely. Yup. Definite.
-Cover up my jealousy in the midst of laughter-
10:40 PM
