- 17 on 5th Oct 2006. - Known as Aryuna. - Sketching, Mangas, Dancing and Singing.

- A black ink pen. - Keyboard. - Peace and Good Health.

Zizie
Alia
Ella
Firah
Dyl
Ama
Hanna
Diyy
Iffah
Aryuna
NazAmirah
Aryuna

inspired by Michelle*

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Here I go again in this story board
where all my life are typed on the spot
doesn't mean type as in I make it all up
but it just so happen and I could reminisce it up

Love my internet, love my style
don't give me trouble else I'll stick you up in the aisle
then here comes free with the name of glee
oh hell? are you taking me for free?

I love to do dis, I love to crap around
I love all of this coz it doesn't make any sound
no laughter no giggle only teeth clattering
no smiles, no shrugs just ur arse farting

okay getting little bit loosen up in here
c'mon c'mon just give me a cheer
say hey... [hey]
say ho.. . [ho]
and here I go den off I go
till later then you will noe.




Now's the real thing.

--> School's was kinda BBBOOOORRREEED.
--> DNT was commonplace. Usual scolding. Usual disappointment. Usual stuff.
--> Combined Humans was great. Mdm Mariamah didn't come.
--> pass it on. We knew Mr NG wouldn't be coming. So 3 straight rows of free periods.
--> Soto conquered recess.
--> Mrs Tan too didn't come. 3 periods straight again. Hat trick or wat.
--> Mrs Sum gave us handouts. Finished it before a period even passed.
--> 2nd period. Really had to sleep.
--> 2nd to 3rd period - Sleep and ached self. Serves self right.
--> woken up by partner in crime's strumming
---> aching. Due to the 'unchangeable' position of self nap previously.
--> at last. POA saves the day...
--> for one period unfortunately
--> fortunately didn't understood anything. So, I'll leave it up till next time.



IF I HAD KNOWN, I WOULDN"T HAVE BOTHERED TO BRING ANYTHING EXCEPT DNT TO SCHOOL. WHAT A WASTE OF MUSCLE ENERGY.
argh.

1:12 AM




Squashed...

11:06 PM

Jay Chou.. Dats wat people tell me...
Hah. Well the intention was there.
I kinda not like it in the first place. Wasn't use to it. But the more I look at it and style it in all sorts of way, I begin to not regret cutting my hair. hah. everything wasn't planned at all. By right, I intended cutting on Sunday. Den Monday will be a surprise for my friends. Hah. But it turned out that zizie was the one who cutted her hair, not me. Den that was yesterday, it was my turn to cut my hair. We didn't had any intentions to cut our hair together or bersepakat or anything. It just happened. Bored with long hair I guess.
Like that time, back in 2004 month of August.
The whole stretch of holidays... [or was it September?] haha. No one said anything about cutting hair. It was sth like Naq and Zizie were very rimas and wanted so much to cut their hair. Den Fatin also straightened her hair and cut it. Dey did just dat... When we had to attend school during the holz for school service, everyone were like thinking did we like, plan? or wat those people call... Boriah? or wateva shyt haha. it's just dat the most shocking thing dat time was I had no intentionz to cut my hair, but suddenly POOF!! My hair was short.. and yar the other three ladies were like 'hey i thought u dun wanna cut hair...'
Lyz was like praising us for being cool.. haha the 4 of us almost wore our hairstyle the same. yeah. dats was why ppl assumed that.

One other thing... What is it about some guys with short hair for girls??
it's like we've just broken the law or sth... The minute we had it short... they will say asal gi potong rambut pendek.
the minute we have it short.. they will comment, ish
haha.. i still remember Khaldun say...
"Eh! Aper hal Arjuna? Yang depan lawa... tapi yang belakang tu ader hal sikit ah...."
haha.. den wen zizie cut hair... i remember Azri [4e6] shaking head and gesturing it is not nice...
oh well... at least got some good feedback like from Arfian.. who said it was stylo...

Purpose of cutting to this hairstyle:
sick of simpaning long hair
more hairstyles can be done with short hair
simple, can be neat, can be messy, but who will care in the end

yeah...

7:01 PM



haha.. farn day yesterday... only now then I want to type bout it...

Yesterday:
Well it's always every Saturday dat we would gather to study, normally at the Airport... somehow yesterday, there were only me, zizie and Asnu available. Hah. So, Asnu was the one who suggested goin my place to study. [just so that he could meet My brother=his beloved].
So yar, zizie told me, around 3 reaching my house. So I waited like for quite a while. Den I sms'd zizie as I got worried they were not here like it's already 1530.
Well, I was told it was raining really heavily and they juz got on the bus and was at the expressway. So ok, I understood and waited for them. Then around 4 plus my hp rang. It was a picture of zizie and me. I answered.
I was shocked. It was Asnu's voice. Haha. Oh well, he told me they were stranded. My place, it was raining cats and dogs. Somehow he hinted to me, like asking me to fetch them. Haha. I told them to wait and brought 2 big umbrellas with me. My sis juz got back and asked me where I was going. I told her I was going to fetch my frens and off I went.
Well, it was really pouring [and Asnu juz onlined yikes.. haha] and it seemed like there was no point in using the umbrella, I was still quite drenched. From a distance, I could see a very tall person and a short person. haha. Both looking at my way. Both of them had teeth shown. I could certainly tell that they had quite an experience. The Journey To Fernvale Road. Haha.

So I shared one umbrella with zizie and gave one to Asnu.

We walked on to my house and as we reached, we started to get on with our homework. I did some DNT and zizie/asnu did maths. We did, we did, we did, we did... until after my mom went off to work.
yarh... den got distracted with MSN.. after that Asnu got distracted with my brother's electric bass. Haha.. even asked me to find Vertigo Bass Tabs and print it out immediately. Haiyoh asnu asnu.. tsk tsk tsk
Den around after Maghrib... decided to chill at the park. My brother brought Naq's guitar, switched off all the lights and switches... den off we went to the park. Zizie was not so kecoh coz she has ever been to the park before. But Asnu.. he was so noisy. Jakunist. haha But a lot of Fun Asnu is. We walked to the park and looked out. There was the beautiful moon and trees surrounding Bungalow Houses and Terraces. Well for your info, the park is located at the fifth floor rite above the multi-storey carpark. yar.. and we get to see the top view of the surroundings. Haha. And here goes the night.

Asnu sat down and he sat down the 'Mat Mat' style.. haha den he 'swit swit' at zizie me and my brother. Da way he did it made all of us cracked.. haha. It was damn 'kekek' coz he had his jeans folded up [due to the rain] and it looked liked he had it tapered. Haha. He is a lot of stuff, Asnu is. Den my brother settled down to strum some made up songs. Zizie and me looked up to the sky and got to see some stars. Den I suddenly sang, "Bagai bintang di surga, dan seluruh warna' and my brother strummed that song. Haha. Den it all flow along. Asnu... created lyrics juz like dat with the created chords of my brother. It all turned out nice. But Asnu will always spoil it hhahaa.
Got at one point of time, my brother told Asnu to make something out of the word 'Daun'. So, Asnu, yeah, he tried. And there was one part he repeated the word pokok a lot of times.. It became so catchy. Another word was Kami.... den all of a sudden it became Kamikaze.. haha.. All of us had a lot of laugh and fun. Yeah.
The only worry I had that time was I hope we didn't scare the neighbours of with Asnu's 'Beautiful Singing'. He was the star of the day, I spose.
haha
We went off to play the playground and played for awhile. Well what it takes to be a child back.
Yeah.
And next...
we went to the highest storey of my block. 25th floor.
The lift took us up 20 storeys. It was a long time. Asnu told me to take a picture of his. He likes to do his face so serious that my brother was quite tempted to disturbed. In the end, didn't take any. Zizie just stayed one corner to laugh her head off at those behaviours.. hhahaha.
Den 25th floor...
we looked out of it, and we could see the Hougang, Yio Chu Kang, best of All we could see the CITY. yeah.
we looked down and my brother said something. "Lorry mainan seh."
and Asnu with his 'Jakuned' tone.. 'eh a'ah lah!'
haha.. after a while we decided to go back to my house.. oh yeah. den Asnu said something like "goodbye..' or what.. haha.. practically shouted down the whole block. haha. And guess who replied?
The howling of a dog. Haha.. All of us were like laughing at that. Thinking that Asnu was one of the dogs member. haha. Den Asnu tried again doing that. The same thing happen.
Dah sah dah.. Asnu nyer member tu.
Yeah came back 5th floor. Had a great time. Asnu posted an entry in my blog. He was quite worried bout going home so late. Zizie didn't matter coz her mom was still at Bedok. She could actually stay backed longer. But coz of Asnu, oh well, won't hurt to go back with him.
Yeah pack pack pack. Den Fadly phoned and asked for my brother. Asnu answered for him and imitated my brother's voice. which was like so funny. Haha. Den yeah. They decided to go home. The clock was like showing... 10.00

Asnu's IPOD was no where to be found. haha. oh so sad.
[it's with Zizie all the while. Hah. ]
Send them to the busstop.. 163 is really slow.. Haiyoh. Dey shouldn't even think about stopping bus 371. oh well. At least I have an alternative of how to get to school. And it's even faster.. Yarh..
Guess wat Asnu ur 'bracelet' or wateva that's called is with me. So I'll bring it tomorrow.




Today?
Well, today I woke up really late. Straightaway I had to go bathe and go out to eat with my family. I felt so dizzy and wanted to throw up coz the day before I was like eating rice so late at night. Guess a lot of angin dah masuk I think.
Yar...
Went to Beach road for Sup Tulang. Was so delicious and all. Oh how I wish that moment I didn't feel sick. I would eat it all up and finish it.
Oh well can always go there again one day.
Den went to walk2 at Arab Street and Golden Landmark. Den finding nothing there, my mom decided to go home. Taxi to, taxi back.

And now I am here, think I am done.





8:09 PM



yeah yeah yeah...just came back from juna's park.. cheh..park dier kaper... had alot of fun! realli alot! made our own songs cam org giler... memang org giler ah..shouting in the middle of the nite in the middle of the park.. kewl though.. rhadjit played the guitar.. asnu n the gerls nyanyi.. the gerls sey.. i studied very little todae..yer yer jer nak dtg umah djit n juna nak blaja..in the end my parents was rite.. i wont study.. how guilty i felt.. but hu cares... i care la.!. .. haha.. nvm... erm.. gonna go home soon..if nt the naggin will strt. wad do to..just listen ah.. erm.. tomorrow is sundae.. how fast time flies.. wish it was fridae... leh enjoy lagi.. haiz... anywaez.. gtg now.. haf fun pple n dun forget to do ur werk..
ASnurIzan outz.. world peace ! ; p

9:21 PM


sing a song

3:56 AM


mad ela jun alia zizie snow

3:55 AM


kekawanz

3:55 AM


merepek lagi merepek

3:54 AM


kemerepekan yang amat terserlah

3:49 AM

Today:
met Naq, Alia, Blitz and this chinese girl from 4e7... at Serangoon Wee Lee Music Centre. Took $10 room.. for 2 hours... shared the room with Blitz... when it was Attivo's turn, we jammed songs like This Beautiful Girl, Zombie, The Reason, Stuck [In Between] and some crapz going on too. Ahmad came 2 mins before we had to leave the room. Haha bad luck indeed. Oh well. We went off at around 5 plus, where Naq had to go to Bugis. Left with Alia, Zizie, Ella, Asnu and Ahmad with me... Decided to go Kovan, Ella's workplace, to go eat. At pizza hut... Ordered lotsa stuff. Dis time it was not considered a Belanja, coz Ella has been belanja(ing) too much.. haha. Felt kinda guilty tho. So we were having Dinner, stretched till 8 plus.

Toeve:
At pizza hut, we were so full, we packed the leftovers and I decided to bring it home. Oh yar. Naq's guitar with me. She lent it to me coz I have lost touch in that skill and I need to revive it quick! haha.
Den we talked crap. Asnu and Ahmad with their experiences, stories and their self theories and philosophies. Zizie, Alia and me being mostly the audience. Had a good laugh together. Ella seem troubled at times. Haha. However, I hoped she enjoyed just now's dinner. Coz she's unpredictable. (",)
Den we decided to make a move. We walked around for awhile, not wanting to go home yet. It was already 2045 or something like dat. Went into this shoe shop, den Watson's [zizie n ella], me alia ahmad asnu were walking deeper into more shops and passed across stuff toys shops like Mini Toons and etc den I saw this Pretty In Tokyo stuff or sth like dat and decided "Hey, maybe we should take pictures..."
One reason: For memories of course.
Another reason: rare occasion to take with Ahmad and Asnu
Alternatively: Somewhat had the money for that.
Finally and most obviously: Asnu LOVES to take pictures.. and he once said "Lain kali amek gambar ngan aku eh?" Haha, duno whether dats cute or demanding. Oh well dats Asnu for ya.
I told Ella n Zizie my wish, n was approved by them all. So, we straddle, waddle, strutted, farted across shopses [haha bad pluralism] and went into the $9 machine. well before that, yar, went to change note into coins. Got 10 gold coins, and went back to the machine and *Cling* Cling* goes the coins into the machine.



12:53 AM



I decide who I am. I decide what's a betrayal and what's not. - Irgan

Tavern Gareth:-
I was just reading this cool book. It's very easy to understand. I get caught up in it like for an instant.
Book's called Head Games. Written by Mariah Fredericks.
Borrow it in the library if you want. Haha.

Yesterday's Ikhlas last episode (",)

Cool ending. Naya chose Reza instead of Iman. Iman seemed like he approved of it, tho he was quite heartbroken, least that's what his expression potrays.
Haha and the cuckoo guy who was like a bapok, turned into a normal, very cute person... haha.. Funny thing.
Somehow, I only caught hold of the part where they were berjemaah... and shaking hands... and go round... apologise²
And da last part. Which was kewl.
Den Zizie called me. Just to tell me that she was happy with Ikhlas's ending.. haha Weird person she is... ("-) If only there were such people in real life *in my life i mean*.. like Reza and Naya... :P
I'll be as happy as a monkey..haha.
Den somehow, when zizie was talking to me. I was kinda in a dreamy state. I was totally out of the conversation. Haha. Zizie was blur. Well.. Sorry but I was sort of lying down on my mom's bed... *phone's in my mom's room*.. and Doze off a little...
Kinda rude, But hope she understands.. Haha.. nvm.. Zizie kan understanding kan kan kan?

Yesterday ParentTeacherMeeting Session. Full of merepekness. My father actually no need to come also can seh. He just wasted his time, listening to the principal talking crap, for more than an hour. After that, just go down for some refreshments. Which wasn't that Satisfying.. I repeat Not SATISFYING. haha. Oh well.. Went home rite away, never went to see NG or anything... sucha waste of time. Naseb baik my mom never take leave. Buang masa.

Somehow, even tho how boring or sleepy it was when Ms Cheng was addressing us as well as the parents, I was listening hard. I really want to go for JC. Go to University. Get a Great Job. Fulfil what I want to do. The thing is, I still have yet to find what am I keen of doing. Haha. dats a real great pleasure.

Really it is.











2:00 PM



"Some people live for the fortune"- Alicia Keys

::.. define:::> I think life is all about being happy and being able to achieve your goals. Besides that, the purpose of life might be that to get a good life, you have to suffer to attain it. Also besides that, it is so that you could make your mark while you are still here. Believe in what you believe in and for sure, help will be provided. Life makes you feel worthwhile. Precious indeed. However, people misused the given chance to live. They assume everything about life is about wealth and fortune. They are wrong.

"Everything means nothing"-Alicia Keys

::.define:::> For example, if you ask your mate, "What do you want for you birthday, honey?" Usually the other party would say all kinds of material thing. Now that's what I call bullshit. They ain't serious in relationship, to my perspective. If you are true to that person, you are willing to not make him/her be burden'ed' by ur 'demands' and 'wants'. Now, 'everything means nothing' simply means this.
Guy: Birthday's coming. Give me some idea. What dya want for present?
Girl: I want everything from you. [means: i want nothing, I just need you to care for me and look out for each other, fren.]

and idiotic fella would reply: "ooh u notty little thing.." -_-"

"All I'm looking forward to is you..."-Alicia Keys

::.define:::>This really mean that this guy/girl really can't live without him/her.



I am so sorry for crapping out all this shytz. But you see, it's already 0107hrs and I am still up and awake. What dya think?
I need to do DNT. I know, I keep on repeating that statement. But this won't stop until after JUNE. So bear with my GRIEFS.
Hoo... I've been on the comp since I came back from school. I am also spose to print zizie's pic. My biggest fear: No Colour Ink Catridge.

Weren't You the One Who said that You don't Want me Anymore?
You're confusing me
What you saying to me
Don't play with me
Don't play with me...

12:57 AM




Another collage. My Friends and My Life.

11:41 PM


Irah and Me Frenz Like For Forever.

11:37 PM


Friends Forever? Yeah

11:31 PM

Take a look at me now, there's just an empty space...

Ok cut the crap. Down to serious business.
Pada sebelah pagi hujan dijangka turun di daerah........................... ok i am still not stopping my crap. I hear American Idol ("o)

suddenly got a lot of things to do... but juz now like a lot to write.. but..................

hmm.. blog later.. chaoz

8:43 PM

yeah location: Pasir Ris Secondary School
exactly in font of the computer screen, left to me zizie... within the range of irah and naqz........ fatin? i dunno where she is, n i heard today's ella's first day of school at Nanyang JC.. coolioz.. haha

kewl kewl... i am very motivated u noe... by Ella that is... haha she is damn cleverer n i think i can b cleverer (",) haha

anywayz... we are actually, sposedly to do some English grp project discussion... but here i am in this solitary state.. 'competing' with zizie who will post their blog entry faster.. n she is not gonna lose.. hahahahaha that's wat her typing thingie is telling me... and she is 'backspacing' backspacing' backspacing'.... hahahah...

oh hell, Mrs Tan juz walked pass and the ring just rang... so long sucker.. i mean.... bye -___-"


hahaha-ing

12:32 PM




Monday: SI Interview/Sec 1 swearing-in
-- such a cock-up... haha... i forgot the first part of the pledge...
-- during the interview with the AC and other 2 officers, I talked bullshytz and fortunately my interviewers could take my crap.. haha...
--Amazingly, I survived and felt excited for the next day

Tuesday: Adventure Training Facilities [ATF]
-- the morning was lyk fuck.. haha... I hate myself for being so AARGH! I hate it when I misplace sth and I can't find it.. the thing on that day was my spectacles... the one with spec hooks on..
-- took cab with my mom.. she sent me to the Jetty...
-- so zizie alighting from a cab, called for her; my mom, zizie and me when to buy my 1.5 Litre bottle...
-- went back to the Jetty, the rest were still in the bus...
-- 10 mins later they came... THEY = Lina, Syahiran 4, Syahiran 5, Shikin, Derrick, Hizwan...
-- ATF was fun.. high elements and darkness... very very fun...
-- all the way partnered with zizie...
-- eat at the Changi Jetty
-- slept in the bus... while goin back to school around 1945...
-- see the advance party... how's it going... found out we could sleepover smuggly.. went back to zizie's house.. and back to school again
-- slept in school... very very tired... we [me n zizie] slept like nobody's business... in the AVA room, with others.. ; OTHERS = Zul, Anai, Fikar, Syahiran 4, Athirah, Hizwan, Zizie, Dayah 3, Azrul, Liang Ting, Steven, Jing Kai, erm who else? basically them ah..
[I salute Derrick for being an all-rounder.. haha... the ATF ppl should wat I mean...]

Wednesday: First Day of Sec 1 Camp
-- woke up, feeling giddy...
-- very bingit, becoz was woken up by all the noisy sec 3s preparing for their camp... zizie, syahiran 4, hizwan and me very very tired... haha...
-- finally woke up at the same time with Zizie and Syahiran 4... den went to NP room to get our things.. and zizie and me went to bathe and get ourselves mentally prepared to advise the sec 3s on their camp...
-- Sec 3s.. very slack... maybe bcoz they're not use to being an NCO yet.. haha..
-- time management not that good... at one point they're ahead of schedule.. then the next moment they're behind schedule...
-- senior NCOs helped in makin the campfire pit... and structure for the fireball or sth lyk dat...
-- got to noe a new WCI.. Azrene.. [ i think that's how we pronounce her name.. nice person.. but burst a blister wen lashing... poor thing]
-- the campfire making was quite fun... but tiring, hot and oily at the same time...
-- had some good laughter... and Anai had a new catch word of the year...
last year = Wak's Catch Word >> "Vulgar!"
this year = Anai's Catch Word >> "OooI! BOdoH!" hahha.. the way he say it or shout it was very funny.. every time he say that whenever a person was blur or didn't make sense to him, Azrul and me would laugh.. haha.. it became a 'trend' this year...
-- at night.. campfire was fucked up... didn't enjoy it.. halfway thru I went to help Steven, Qayyum, Hafiz, Pan Min and some other fellas in logistics for Night Walk...
-- Again, time management was sucky.. they had to cancel two stations... [oh yar.. Adimah and Ella came]
-- before the Night walk started, Alvin, Jik, Syahiran 4 and me decided to stay at the Physical Fitness Corner, thought that place was one of the station covered during the Night walk... at first Jik, Alvin and Syahiran 4 went to the toilet... wen Jik went inside first, Alvin tried to scare Jik by closing the door of the boy's toilet.. but as he closed the door, the door creaked eerily.. and Alvin and I just laughed suddenly while imagining sth scary.. becoz before that we were talking about scary stuff... den after the guys finish doin their business.. Mr Tan called Alvin to clean up the mess on the table beside the HOD Room.. 4 of us went to clean it up.. haha.. it was some kind of flour which was stucked on the table like wax... and we didn't have any cloth to go buy, and syahiran 4 took a glass of water to rinse the table, and someone's smart idea to use syahiran 4's shoe to wipe the table.. haha.. in the end Alvin took some papers from the piano.. and use it to wipe the table... Mr Tan came out to check on us... and he's face was lyk peng... haha.. we gave him reason. 'No cloth ah.. then the thing like stuck on the table...' haha we got away safely, went to th PFC and waited there like gundus.... no one came.. no sec 3s nor sec 1s pass the PFC.. haha.. den went we checked behind the canteen, we found out that actually the night walk had juz started.. haha real gundus...
-- at night, didn't sleep at the AVA coz the aircon's remote couldn't be found.. so da senior NCOs decided to use the New Foyer area... we slept lyk nobody's business again.. ahaha

Thursday: 2nd Day of Sec 1 Camp
-- we were woken up to check on the sec 3s during their Pairs Night Walk Event... whether they're really doin their work..
-- after 3 rounds of.. erm.. rounds.... we went back to sleep.. and for two nights, no dreams... maybe becoz i was too tired.. we all were....
i was the last one to wake up.......................... wash up.... and freshen myself up....
we were allowed to 'tekan' the sec 3s... they were a bunch of slackers...
well... the girls' toilet were neat.. haha
cleaned up the logistic room.... NP room... debriefing.... for sec 1s...
den chill a bit inside the NP room [all the Senior NCOs]
den after the sec 1s went back.. we had debriefing with the sec 3s... there were too many negative points.......... but Liang Ting was praised for being calm and cool wen handling tasks and Kelvin was also praised for being responsible.. Sec 3s voiced out their weaknesses and strengths... senior NCos voiced their opinions.. CIs led the debrief.. and it all ended with a thank you from the sec 3s to CIs and senior NCo and then BersuRAi...
after that.. cleaned up the NP room and Logistic Room... then we all went home.. some went to eat at Kanpong Chai Chee...



--------- Right now---------- -------------I am Here---------------- ----------Home----------



I still haven't do my homework sia.. haha.. mayb tomorrow.. today relek2 a bit.. havta 'pamper' myself for a while.. before torturing myself again.....................................................

=for i noe not what i do, what i havta do, forgive me,no =

3:33 PM




Look See View Reflect

1:51 AM



I've gone and read all the entries I have in my blog...
I can't help to think and wonder...
Those days... I've been feeling rather down...
well, as the saying goes "life is never complete without ups and downs"
hmm.. but then to think of all the 'problems' that I have..
it all links to me... me being lazy... me being demanding... me being selfish... me being self-complain...
I think I should stop all this right now.. all this not meaning I should stop blogging..
all this meaning I should stop thinking about all this problems...
Be optimistic.. more of it perhaps?

Down Due to:
DNT : I think I find that Mr Hazmi is being too good to 4e4 DNT students.. He's helping us like crazy... but me... what did I do? I didn't complete my homework.. I gave a lot of excuses.. I gave him unexplainable reasons to why is that so... I am a bad student.. really I am.. and I am planning not to do it again. Term II is going to be a brand new Term for me... to redeem my 'losses' in Term I.

Attitude: Well, it's just yesterday Fatin gave me this powerpoint slide about Attitude equals to 100% in life... or something like that... saying that you change your Attitude you change your life... it was kind of cool... it motivates me [as well as Fatin]... that's why I think my current Attitude ----> I am Lazy... All I want is to have fun... I have yet to settle down.. I guess Mdm Mariamah was true... we have not settle down yet... but it's kind of disappointing as this year, being our last, important, major and [{auspicious}] year... but we have yet to settle down....
DISSAPOINTMENT...

Time: I realise, time... it's getting faster and faster... due to hi-tech stuff... mordenised ways.. or there's just too much thinking to be done until you never notice that time has passed.. I am rather scared of that.... It's never too late to repent... but once we've reached that moment, it's already too late...

Well... how I wish that this year's starter was constant... that's what bad about me. I am not constant.. once I do something, I would not carry on doing it. At the start of this year, I really paid attention in class, I did my homework and stuff... coming to the late Term I i began to slack... never doin my homework like it's none of my business...
And I guess I really need this March Week Holidays to think everything through....

March Holz events:
Monday - SI Interview with AC, Swearing-In Sec 1 Area 9
Tuesday - ATF [Adventure Training Facilities at Pulau Ubin]
Wednesday - Sec 1 Camp [Sec 3s organiser - sec 4 advisors]
Thursday - 2nd day of Camp
Friday - Chemistry Practical
Saturday - study group
Sunday - must relax.. or not Term II like shytz...




=I am living a lovely Life=
=set me on fire=

12:55 PM



I woke around 0730 this morning...and I dreamt of something weird...

The place was located at at a place which looks like my old primary school... but in my dream it was stated it was my current secondary school... you know... hhaha and in the dream.. there were some soccer guys, volleyball girls and guys and also some guys who were playing basketball...

well i was with zizie... we were as usual [like in real life] observing the movements of people, how talented they are, and amazed by that... especially when there's some hot tricks up their sleeves, we would widened our eyes and go 'woah.. power' haha.. especially wen someone would bicycle kick a goal or slamdunk a score... we would do that...ok back to my dream... it was a very hot day [well that's wat i experienced in my dream]...

so i was tempted to join the soccer guys... it looks fun... furthermore I love playing soccer.. so zizie and me went to them and said 'we want to join ah...' so one of my friends Khaldun said 'ok can.. of coz' den after wedid 'Black or White' to determine who's in which side.... so I was teamed up with Khaldun, Khairel and Zizie and other ppl.... and when the first kick was made by Hydil from other team... it started to rain heavily... haha.. after that we ran for the shelter right behind the canteen where all the canteen stall vendors wash up their plates and cutlery... as soon as we reach there... the sun started to come out... den we continued.... and as usual as we made the first kick... it started to rain again... cats and dogs... BOWL! i thought in my dream.. when are we going to settle down and play this game... ahah oh well it wasn't expected.. so we ran to the shelter again and wait for the rain to dry... but again... the sun began to shine again when we reach that damned shelter... ahahha... and suddenly when we were back at the game.. i was chosen to make the first kick... everyone was in their position... last man, goalkeeper, midfieldz, left and right wings, defenders.... and i started to swing my right leg, planning to pass it to Khaldun on the front right... when suddenly the soccer ball juz exploded.. and that's where i woke up.. to find out it was raining outside.....

well... it was pretty interesting and weird.. that dreeam was... ahaha my friends and I, we have weird dreams.. we love to hear about it and comment that dream... ahah... we would always try to relate it with affairs in our real life.. to see whether the dream was some sort of a sign to something.. some of us thought that... maybe we think too much about a certain matter juz before we were to sleep... and as a result we dreamt about that context... but i still think that dreams are juz dreams.. which can be quite impossible in real life.. but you might not know if it will turn out into a Deja Vu

8:48 AM




my drawing.. i miss short hair.. i miss headphones.. i need a collar neck coat.. coz it's nice.. most of all i miss my drawing... so Close Ur Eyes and Wonder together with me will ya?

10:46 PM


and we're back in Pretty in Tokyo... zizie looking so cool and me trying to promote peace... unsuccessful.. [psyched!]

10:11 PM


erk... i think it needs 2 heads to be knocked at... well actually it's more like zizie's the only one who got hit.. but oh well.. i felt the pain too

10:09 PM


and suddenly we're somewhere in Miami... weird tho...

10:07 PM


we were at Shanghai... stranded there with our School Uniform...

10:06 PM



You Should Have Been Blasted - Hafiz Can read??? haha

oh Fcuk that shit... I just changed the blogskin... To be truthful... I still dunno how it looks like.. I haven't preview... haha... ok shaddapz...

ok today there was detention straight after school... if u read my previous entry... [some of my classmates including me were scolded... yada yada yada]
we were separated from the other detention'er's... and sat quietly behind the HOD room... mostly doing ART[for those ART students] and DNT for me.. for the others I dunno what they did... well the only thing that was cool was... we really spent our time quietly until it was time for Physical Education Lesson...

Change to P.E attire----- Went to report for P.E ----- took attendance ------- ran 3 rounds of a quarter of the soccer field -------- drank from water cooler [my fave.. coz it's free] --------- did high jump in the hall---------- got $1 from Lyz coz she owed me... I kinda forgot wat I did for her -------- erm... den wen to talk to IVAN DARYL and TIM [who was paiseh wen I came to see him playing the piano... aww so cute :S]----------hmm... we [LYZ, ALIA, NAQ, ZIZIE, AMIRAH]left the school compound---------lyz n amirah left us in ex-SOGO-------- naq me zizie alia wen to toilet for real business---------den naq went to take bus at another bus stop and me zizie alia wen to rush our way to the 27 bus stop... which was sickening------- first we saw a bus [quite crowded] so we relek relek----- den we saw bus 15 behind it------ and behind that bus 15---------- it was another bus 27!!!------ it was empty!!!!-------so we ran with all our might..--------guess wat...---- i think our lives junxed at that moment---------- the bus driver so stooopzzzz juz drove offffff------- and i am still pissssssed at that--------- oh well...--- fortunately the next bus 27 wasn't tat slowz.....----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

met my brother at bus 371|163 bustop... went home together....

so basically... today's no sleep for me... i got tonnes of hw [yet again]...
i hope i have the energy to do it...
this blog is only for a starter for my fingers to work....
oh i am so happy...


=I wish I could Start A New=


8:45 PM

Monday, March 07, 2005

I guess whatever's been said and done
are self-explainable
there's no need to argue about anything
there's no need to bring about chaos on a small matter
I just think, where there's a will, there's a way?
yar... that's true... haha at first it sounded funny... but that's the way it goes...
Let's just forgive and forget
Just give and take
Just come and go
Just start and end
Just listen just know

For whatever the outcome will be, the wrong will be wronged
the right will be proven

Entry:
How I feel Right Now: I feel sick... my nose is blocked. My mouth is dry. My lips are dry. I am feeling cold, at the same time I feel quite hot. I feel guilty and wrong. I haven't even started on my homework. I feel lazy. Stupid. Restless. Sick. Happy.. maybe...

How I wish to overcome this: well... i want a smarter brain... if that's the case.. my attitude has gotta change.. for sure... i wish i was calm at doing anything... but i think again.. i am too calm.. i don't have the bla bla bla"sense of urgency"bla bla bla... too calm is not good... too 'kanchiong' also not good...

Have I done all of that that i wished for?
aha.. i wish i could have been able to done it.. attitude plays an important part.. and i certainly don't think that i have the right attitude yet...



My troubles are:
1) Facing Mr Hazmi without anything to show him.. i have to show him my 10 exploration of ideas.. which i only manage to have 4.. and it's crumpled.. :S
2) CA card
3) NCO Camp proposal
4) the verdict of SI Interview
5) ppl talking and hating anything about me... what did i do wrong? i hope i did no one wrong..
6) I think i've lost my sincere smile
7) I am overweight
8) my friends might think i am annoying... and i think i am reading too much in it
9) i didn't read the instructions for my previous karangan about 'mimpi'.. i am disappointed.. i assume i didn't do well on tat piece of shytz...
10) 'O' Levels Examinations... $370... 8 ||More Months|| argh...




-Wish i was as smart as your ass-

1:09 AM

Sunday, March 06, 2005

ay yo... dis is me.. still awake.. since yesterday.. haha

listening to "Spend Some Time" performed by Eminem feat 50 cent and Stat Quo... neat song... really means much... about u choosing someone who's not worth it.. think she's worth it... yeah...
now listening to Mockingbird... neat song too.. all about a father showing love, expressing his deepest feelings and explaining certain things his daughter may not understand... she's too young to understand

well.. all these relate back to LIFE... which is why we should cherish life while we are alive... i know this may sound crazy... but i am pretty much scared of wat will happen tomorrow... i juz havta hope and pray... hope and pray.. hope and pray


well oh well... Common tests sux big time... haha no. 164 in the whole level of sec4/ really need to work hard on that... i need to \up/ my level of knowledge and stuff.. use to be good at all these.. guess things juz change wen u grow older...
change ur attitude ll gal@!!

haiya... still hav 8 mths.. can struggle no more.. hope to c me in some JC...


=Life is Many splendid Things=
=crazy till like i'm a maniac=
=it's a bad habit=
=work on it=

6:23 AM

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

i am sick and tired of myself being so lazy... somehow today i was enlightened... by...
MDM MARIAMAH

haha.. well it began with...

she enters 4e4 classroom, she asked us where did we stop the last period.. we told her we stopped at pg 76 2b... and so everyone took the initiative to try and take out their wb... Mdm Mariamah walk around to see if we had done our homework... but then she spotted one of us leaving blank... den she suddenly got angry... and she became suspicious of a lot of others... some left it blank, some didn't bring their wb and some didn't complete... so she took a piece of paper... asked what was wrong with us and said that those who didn't complete their homework had to go for the next slot of detention... well there were plenty who didn't do... including me, who has always been doing her work but wat bad luck... she had to check on the day that i started to get lazy... and so she didn't go through the hw... and procede on to the next section. We started on The Cold War.. told us to read about it and make summary notes... so that it'd would be easier for her to talk and we to understand her... so yar... we read... and Mdm Mariamah walk2 around again... and she found some without tb... so she went berserk... she lectured us about how irresponsible and irritating we were becoming... she told us that this is our 'O' level year...

'What is this? It's already the beginning of March and you are still not settled?'

'How many of you want to go to College?'

'4e4, your grades are worst off than my normal classes! Your average MSG is 7 and theirs is 6!'

'4e4, you are beginning to irritate me!'

'If these textbooks and workbooks are a burden to you, might as well stay at home. Don't come to school!'

'Get Married! Go To work! if that's wat you want...'

'Girls! Don't be air-heads huh? and Boys too...!'

'I've said this to you before huh 4e4, at the end of all this, when you get your results, you either MAKE or you BREAK!'

'You either make it or you break it!'

'MAKE OR BREAK...!'




heh... that was very scary... seeing her so mad at us... for our lazy attitude... oh well... the class was so quiet... and when she stepped out of the classroom, it began to rain heavily...
the weather shows it all...


-willing to show her, need to prove to her, desperately for self-

3:39 PM




This is my favourite wallpaper...

11:09 PM


Sanzo... he's coolx

11:07 PM

ah damn... juz now i actually got type sth... but everything's gone coz...

Hydil was sendin me a song... Oye Canto.. or sth like dat ah...
den wen finish transfering, i tried opening that file...
skali this blogger "Create Post" terchange! haha.. and i had almost a complete blog but it's all gone because of the very fast reaction of the transferation [is there such word?]

well... wat did i type juz now? oh about happiness i see?

hmm...
oh yar... common tests...
i really have to work hard to get to my aims...

English common test - 10 out of 25
combined science (physics) - 19 out of 40
maths [elementary] - 31 out of 50 (and desmond said that's not my standard... well i kinda slack coz of this new internet.. haha... somehow i neglected all my hw and only do it in school..)

oh yar... and i also did type about me.. how happy i was when i was very concentrated and focus... and i understand how to do POA!! haha...
well.. usually these eyelids won't bear for so long during the last two periods... but amazingly graceful... i scrape thru the period... and even did my worksheet conscientiously...

haha.... next thing... this week oral week.. i have to be really good at talking... :D

and another thing is i've been selected to go for SI interview on friday... with 3 other guys Syahiran, Hizwan and Derrick... well i need to prepare my stuff... even tho i m not so into being an SI, i still have to prepare for this, coz i am not use to slinky and flimsy work....
haha... oh well i juz wish all these to be over and done wit...

- i like the word schizo but it's not a good word-

7:21 PM