Sunday, July 31, 2005
So it seemed that I've woken up at 12 midnight, and slept the whole 7 hours before. Now serves me right for not being able to sleep again. I have Maths tuition at eight and I still have yet to do the homework. and malay tugasan. and dnt test against specs. and economics. and survey.
"I've decided I still Love You - 702 Feat Pharrell"
A weird dream I have encountered. My family's been attacked by 2 vampires, and I left the vicinity I lived in, based on my dream, I could jump from building to building and ended up running towards a basketball court. Well the neighbourhood I was in was a stretch of bungalows. Hoho if the vampz weren't there to intervene, I guess it would be more like a fantasy. Then my dream ended off with me having somewhat like a vid clip of a song by Elly Mazlein. I'm like.. whaa. in the world is goin on inside my head. Hmm the dream happened during the evening, I had some startles here and there in my sleep, but managed to go back to the dream again. Now that's a little weird. Hah.
I need vol 2 of Chrno Crusade.
2:32 AM
Saturday, July 30, 2005
Haha. SO much for being shy. Finally, I gave in.
So yeah, audition on Weds is it? Believe it or don't... I am participating in PRSS Idol, haha... if we get thru or sth... it would be PRSS Idols. Hey this triggers me so. Thought PRSS Idol spose to be like only one chosen and can sing for Teacher's day. But the name PRSS Idol is just to substitute it for the normal Audition for Teacher's Day. Hmm, nvm I am confusing myself even more. Blegh.
Ok. SO I'mma b singing with Yan, the song Merindu Kepastian, there's Isabella by Izzad and Raziman and Amir if I'm not mistaken, then My brother some songs with Asnur den Anas would be singing erm... I don't know, I haven't get the Data yet. Our so called manager, Mr Khal, would be giving it out soon. SO yeah, I guess I'm confirming myself to be participating in the Jinx Idol stuff. Haha. Reminded me of last yea..... argh, forget that incident, so shyt sia the sound system. I hope it won't happen again this year or sth. haha.
Manifestasi yesterday. Hmm about this foreigner who wants to Jajah kampung Padimerah, or is that the name of the Kampung? haha sth padi lah. Den Marlia, Musfirah's sis was the leading actress. It was all good man. The dikir was incredible. Marvellous. Splendid. And everything positively right. The whole acting crew enjoyed themselves. It so remind me of Gema Puisi Artistik as well as Pentas held at TP.Hmm typical malay performance. All so sleek. And guess what, my sister's once malay teacher and Tha Man of Bahasa Melayu, woohooo... arrived as the Guest of Honour, Cikgu Md Ariff Md! Wow, got to see him, I was so touched he came. Haha. I mean reading some of his cerpen, novel and karya... I fell in love with his style, he is really a true warrior in this Sastera thingie.
Anyway, the Manifestasi ended and we headed down to Saffron to eat 2 big huge Murtabaks. Saw Wak - hhaha he said he panggil den he said kiter eksyen. Aper dah... org tengah syok mkn takkan tak tau lak. Haha. Oh well Wak, I still have yet to thank you for donating some coins dat time, even though you were late. Haha. Drumx RocK!
haha. Btw, i got a drum set at home. Haha. It's fun man. i Feel so.... mini. And I am damn hungry rite now.
-Damn tmr got Maths tuition. Dread it. But oh well.-
1:16 PM
Thursday, July 28, 2005
Manifestasi tomorrow.
National Day Parade in School's rehearsal tomorrow.
No remedial tomorrow.
Test Against Specifications tomorrow.
Healthy tomorrow, I hope.
I love Jay More and More and I'll do that too, tomorrow.
Joey's here now.
bye.
9:15 PM
Yesterday marked the end of Stressness.
Wait... was there even a stress symptom experienced?
haha. No lah.
It's just.. the end of phase one.
Impending Continuation.
This is just the Rising Action of the whole situation.
Tmr no tuition, fri no tuition, saturday got tuition.Fri got Manifestasi held at TPJC.I haven't finish my hw.I go sleep.
12:03 AM
Sunday, July 24, 2005
oklah. I said I would be faking about stuff if I am blogging.
Well I am bored right now, so I guess I'll blog.
Ok. There's a high chance I would get suspended, along with Bai Kun, Afiq, Azri, Ahmad, JIng Zhi... etc haha Well, being suspended has become like nothing to us, coz we have always make out a joke from it, so that we won't get so depressed if we really are suspended in the future.
But to think of it... if lah.. I am to be suspended I would for sure maximise my time like crazy and strive all the way for my other subjects in the Os.
haha.
Hmm. Anyway, I can seek help from my tuition teachers.. or I can even help myself by using all the textbooks and assessments that I have.
Only that I have to know when is my O levels Oral, yeah.
Hmm.
But if I am not suspended, I would prove to everyone that I can do it. Yep. This is got action talk. haha If you know what I mean.
Hmm I have to remember to bring Initial D soundtrack tomorrow.
I haven't iron all my 5 sets of Uniform.THink I'm going to do it later.
I like the instrumental, Lost in Hell. So soothing. It's like calming a person who thinks that life is nothing else. Haha.
Well, go DNT go. My last phase.
Woohoo.
5:18 PM
Friday, July 15, 2005
somehow if only we could all erase our past... coz it's no use thinking about it... it's all about what lies beyond the future that concern what we are doing rite now.
That's why I need to get my education rite
i need it for my future endorsement.
I need it for a better life.
I need to support my family.
i need it to repay the unpayable debts no one could ever debit or credit or do a balance-day adjustment onto it. All that debts I have to repay my parents.
Well... some ppl just dun understand. The life that they have?
You dun spend it to have fun. Well at times, life is all about fun, but face it... life isn't about making others know stuff about you.
Argh i just noe no more. All i know is that I am typing crap and not knocking any sense to anyone I guess.
Hmm. What's the purpose for bloggin?
Actually, In actual fact... it's all fake.
Haha. Yeah.
Next time If i wana fake, i'll blog.
Blegh till then.
-Despise emotional ppl, but what can I do, rite?-
11:05 PM
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
As I was browsing Friendster... I felt so jealous'd. Haha. Well I like a guy, somehow that guy... argh nvm. It's so trivia anyway. I mean.. it's not like he knows I like him or sth and we aren't even talking like normal friends are talking. My like for him is just plain admiration for his cool looks and I guess that's that. Sometimes he's hot, sometimes it's the way he walks or talks.. So I guess it doesn't matter if he is giving testimonials to a close friend of mine. haha. I mean... jealousy can just occur in many diff ways...just like when Naq talks about how cool Edison Chen was and I felt jealous which is frucking foolish of me... then when Zizie said that Shawn's her bf, haha I just had to object to that when the actual fact that it didn't give me any great impact in life or anything... or when Hanna always gets praised for her good essays when actually she really is good and I am jealous'd of that... and one of the diff ways is this feeling... I suddenly felt so hot up my head.
Back to the Friendster thing. Soon after I realised, it's actually kinda foolish to feel that way coz it's not as if he's fully mine or watsoeva... haha. Oh welll... teenagers, wat dya expect. Anyway, I'll just brush it off my shoulders and think about Jay and only Jay. For the time being, I am officially obsessed with Chou and no doubt I can't deny that.
Yesterday, I was typing about yesterday on this very blog went suddenly after I finished typing out wat I wanted... my foolish deft fingers just had to click onto the X button. And bullshyt knows wat I felt after that. Haha. I just slept off my anger and forgot to wake up at the correct time next. Haha. Funny. Me.
And fuck it. I nearly slept in Humans and vouch never to do such things again. Goodness, if I had slept I am going to blame myself entirely if I fluked my O levels.
POP rehearsal serves no purpose when everyone always delays time. Haha. I was kinda pissed when one blames for one when there's a mistake going on. I mean. everyone has flaws and everyone learn from it. You don't need to prolong the thing and elaborate or go into further details or sometimes you just get carried away with some stupid flaw. Haha. God noes what ish I am talking about rite now. Just that the pissing off part was towards my old mates... practically delaying whenever they want to and are not considerate if one needs to go off early or watsoeva.
Ok I guess Jay's entirely in my heart rite now.
He is forever in my heart.
Will always be and will always support him and his music.
Acting Career? Whatever he wants.. I'll go support him.
Definitely definitely. Yup. Definite.
-Cover up my jealousy in the midst of laughter-
10:40 PM
Saturday, July 09, 2005
Yep. You know that I am a good girl. However, today I am an extra good girl. Mr Hazmi say my DNT progression is not bad. Haha. Gonna finish artefact on Monday. Woohoo. Den Folio boleh tahan terok.
Oh yeah, straight away after I was dismissed, went to have a cold lunch with Irah. Den went home and reached around 5. Den straightaway I go do Social Studies. Do one of the essays questions that Mdm Mariamah gave us. Haha. Plan to let her mark and see where I stand. I need to improve tremendously leh. Cannot slack anymore. Well, I've never slacked have I? haha.
Den I knocked on the comp and chatted awhile with some of my dear friends. After that the alarm rang for me to do POA at 2100. With Jay Chou's Eight Dimension cruning along and Wang Lee Hom's Shangri~La followed after. So yep, I finished up Almagamation worksheet and right on the dot, it was 2200. Haha. Soon after, I rescheduled my Sunday time-table coz I am told that my Elementary Mathematics will start tomorrow morning at eight. And yep, no regrets coz this is all for me....
and my brother of course.
Next, I cleaned up the mess I made and went straight to the comp again. Now listening to Kuo Lai by Fatin's Boyfriend, Lee. Haha.
Hmm I need to finish up the film which still have 6 more empty negative spaces since the Johor Trip. Plan to take my friend's pic but I am not meeting them until Monday, so I guess I'll just take within the family. haha. Oh yeah. I remembered when I was in Secondary Two I have watched the story Princess D starring Edison Chen. haha. The story's interesting, all about this two brothers setting up a game about the Princess D, an action pack virtual game. And They failed and yeah, it's all about internet and all. Haha back then in Secondary two Edison Chen happened to be one of my die-hard-have-to-watch actor. Haha. Now it's all about Jay.
If primary school and secondary school, all the way I have been JT this and JT that. Now it's Chou here and there, and it will be for eternity, I hope. Haha.
Well, I gues I'll stop here. Blog sooner. Yeah. Haha as if someone's gona read all this. If there is, thanks. Appreciate your time. Hehe.
10:55 PM
Monday, July 04, 2005
Hello Jay. Hhaha.
Hmm Went to Johor yesterday. Go Angsana, den go Giant after that go Larkin den go home.
Chew Chew until tired. After that go home watch Senario XX. hah A bit lahr funny, if not for Yasin Yahya and Saiful Apek. Hehe. All about Aliens and stuff. Kinda tak logik but hey, it's all for entertainment so I guess it's fine.
DNT - A worry. I hope Ms Cheng is not for real about suspending someone just coz someone isn't doing his/her work. Hmm I mean, aside from embarassment, one like me already has a mindset of what to be in the future, she should at least pull us aside and have a one-to-one talk with us or something, rather than putting us on display early in the morning during assembly. Understand us first man! I am not bad ok. I mean, it's ridiculous to be giving me a fair conduct, for just absenting myself without valid reason. Aiyah, it's not as if I got a tattoo or rude to teachers. Ok...
And giving pupils fair conduct, it's becoming a cliche, until I don't see the purpose already. It's been used too frequently. She wants to have a bad record of giving a lot of students in PRSS bad conduct or what... She never thinks. And she's not at all interactive. Whatever the HOD says is correct. I mean they never consider what we think. Instead they just shrug our reasons off and just go on with what they think is right. Even though our reasonings might not be good or true, at least have the tendency to consider it and correct us appropriately lah. F them man.
Well I guess partially it's my fault to lah. Hmm you see. If I were to finish my dnt earlier, I would have lepak like nobody's business now. If I were to come for the last day of study camp, I wont be worrying about having a fair conduct. Hmm it's back to me huh? I guess there's no way out but to clear this manually.
From now on, I don't know how many times I've been declaring this, but I'mma say this. Again.
I'm going to rule the world!!
haha no lah. I am going to work extra hard for whatever that's gonna be best for me
It's all me and my life. No doubt.
10:17 PM
Saturday, July 02, 2005
I think I'm a real diff person as compared to when I first came in during my first year of secondary school education. Haha. Guess what. My perspective during that time was to enjoy to my fullest, also be well-liked by others. Coz I heard from my primary school friends that once u give a bad impression, you're done.
But now it's as if I don't really care what others think about me. I mean, for sure they can find some godod points in me yeah, for the bad points, once they find it and I know about it, I will silently change myself and prove to them that I am not like what they think.
Haha I don't know why the hell I am talking or blabbering about this. But to think about it, I see that now ppl are the opposite of what I am doing. I mean, a lot of students [female] are beginning to look so pretty, some even tried hard to look all gorgeous. Or maybe they ARE pretty, only that when early times, they just don't know how to make themselves pretty. Haha.
Oh yeah yesterday's yesterday, I had my Oral Examination Malay Language GCE 'O' Level. It came along kinda smooth. The main topic is about Yawning. Then the perbualan satu is about 'Bosan'. After that the 2nd perbualan was about whether the support of a family is important for one to be successful.
It's been quite a long time since the last entry. There's like no other songs to download, the internet is lacking of more information and I like to be busy with books. Haha. It's interesting coz I know I am capable of good grades and it's all in my hands.
And I know about the difference between 'kerana' and 'disebabkan'. Thanks Khal.
"Biasalah, perogol berepisod." - haha. multi-tasking. I am watching MX3 now.
"Siapa kata aku aniaya kan kaum wanita?"
"Dah tu?"
"Sebenarnya aku suka org kurus kurus, rambut rascal, mcm kau ah."
haha dat is like so... farnie. Especially the part where Masdor go and dance with that Melati Kesumajaya. haha. He is so sleek and fast, it's so cartooned.
And Sarimah is so cool. The way she acts, very unique and even though she played the villain part, I always look forward to see her part. Haha.
Even the one when she was in the Janji Diana story, alongside with Erra Fazira and Rosyam Nor.
"Duit. Duit lagi. Aperlah you all ni. Obsess dengan duit. Cubalah sekali, jangan minta pasal duit bleh tak?" - Maressa [Sarimah]
3:27 PM
