- 17 on 5th Oct 2006. - Known as Aryuna. - Sketching, Mangas, Dancing and Singing.

- A black ink pen. - Keyboard. - Peace and Good Health.

Zizie
Alia
Ella
Firah
Dyl
Ama
Hanna
Diyy
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Aryuna
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Aryuna

inspired by Michelle*

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What's cooking today.
"Your secrets are save with me... I will keep your secrets... just think of me of the pages of your diary... "

Listening to A Keys "Diary" feat tony toni tone. I think he was the one who repeats A Keys ad libs. Where she hit damn notes of "I won't Tell!"

She's so cool don't you think so? She plays the piano like she's born with it. I think that's the plus points she has dat made her into one who's truly can be claim as an artist. I fancy this kinda songs... cool and soothing and all. It's like if you are alone on the beach just strolling or just getting the feel of the cool breeze. You listen. This song entered and absorbed into your eardrums. Now listening to Billy Paul's Me and Mrs Jones. Another slow and calm song. Oh I really do adore these songs. Ahh...

"We both noe that it's wrong but it's much too strong to let it go now..."

Back in school earlier on, Mrs Chua [chemistry teacher] was on MC. Oh at least that's wat Ms Ouh [the relief teach we had] said. Did practical for the first two periods. It was cool. Coz even though things were supposed to be involved with water and liquids and acids, surprisingly, my answer sheet didn't get wet at all. haha. Coolx.
Didn't bring any money today. Naq paid for wat I ate and I just 'jamah2' my frens food. Today was another hot day. But thank GOD for letting the day rain in the morning. It was really a blessing.

DNT was another cool period.
Finally I have my finalised idea to work on. Next up is to develop it reversely and to also choose the diff choices of joints I can apply to the diff parts of my artefact. After that, I have to choose the diff choices of materials to use to each part. Den I have to determine its crucial dimensions. After doing all that, I think I am goin back to the beginning to touch up on certain stuff, or more like on all the other sections. Feel like re-doin all of them. Haha. I guess I'll see to that first. I think I am starting to appreciate dNt. Really I am not joking. It might be T O U G H and L E C E H but to a diff view I can use it to for my L1R5 if I get an A1. It's again, my plus point actually.
Being in 4e4 is nuthing as compared to being in 4e7 or 4e8. They have a lot of PURE things to do. Haha. For us, we take combined science and humanities, where we can easily score really well in it. In actual fact, if I am really on task or sooomething like dat, I might be able to 'overthrow' those really good ppl. Haha. No harm in dreaming, yes? It can be possible. Determination and, yes, Discipline is the key and the lock to opening the success door. Leading me to the road to College and a better future ahead. haha. I am so Goal'ish'. Dunno whether dat word exist or not, but oh heck, i dun care. For now I am not goin to abandon DNT and POA anymore. This goes the same to the other subjects I have. The only thing is that I have to work on my Sciences. They give me crap, but I'll not return their crap back. Instead, I'll try to learn and appreciate them like wat I am doin to DNT rite now. Haha. Go DNT THEORY Go!

Ok. I guess I'mma stop for now. I noe I've typed too much but hey, it's my very own blog and thoughts posted so, just bear with it, ok? Anyway, I've not been online since last 2 days. So, I came here, type out my shitz. And out I go.

++Dearest++

3:37 PM



Like if only today was a windy breezy cooling day, i'll be sleeping like a little baby in a pram.
Haha.
Seriously, noawadays the weather's unpredictable. At times it's hot, at times it's cold and at times it's the combination.
It's such a great relief that we don't experience the 4 seasons. Phew.
Ok today. What have we got today?
Hmm... let me list down what had happened on my TODAY

How I wish my daily bus to school no 168bus will always be a double decker. Haha. Unfortunately, today was not a double deck. I had planned at the bus stop at Seleter Hill Camp that if it's a double deck bus, hell yeah i am goin to sleep in it on the way to school. Luck wasn't on my side as u can see. Haha. All the whole long stretch of the way, I stood up. Haha. Oh well. Bummer.
Reached school like 15 mins b4 school gate. Quite safe. I dun wan another friggin detention. Sux seh. Anyway, tot I want to go Canteen grab some junk or wat, but on the way walking to the canteen saw Khal and decided to chat him up. Haha. He was in front of the general office finding for his blue class diary. He claimed it was lost. I felt sorry for him. haha. Den I helped him rummage thru the stacks of other class diaries but to our horror [not appropriate seh dis word] we couldn't find it. He said ok nvm, and left after saying cya later to me. Aww so sad. We went our separate ways and I went back to the New Foyer and saw my classmates and my schoolmates. They were as usual relaxing and chilling for awhile at the foyer b4 proceeding to the praade ground to do some silent reading.
First 2 periods were Malay Language. I was being so hardworking and worked on my Intensive Trainin Schedule, doing Speech. I sepnt 45 mins doing the planning. Haha. And the last 10 mins relaxing ard. Haha.
English was cool. Did sth about plots. Gave our brilliant yet farnie ideas. Contribute to the class. We told crap. We did crap. We felt crap. haha
Den physics. Nvr bring TYS. haha. den had to do this ws. Sharon, Angelia, Stephen and Ahmad were practically bickering at each other, about a pathetic qn. And to think that qn was only qn no. 1. ahha. I noe lah dey all 'slow learners'. But seeing them that way, makes me smile. Khairun and me being d odd ones juz stayed back and relaxed. Juz waiting for the answer. haha.
After that was RECESS. haah.. Ate fishball soup. Practically still hungry after that one bowl. Zizie and me felt really unenuff. ahaha. any such word? Hope u all understand ah huh... haha
[keep on wishing if only we were in 4e7] haha
Combined humanities were taken over by POA. Mdm Mariamah had to go on course so Ms Lai decided to conquer that 35 mins. Haha. Yeah did TYS and stuff. Den after that period's gone, it was MATHS time.
ahaha.
Did TRigo revision. Yeah. And weneva I pointed out a mistake and found out there's nuthing wrong wit it, Mr Ng will say this 'Serious ah u, I box u den u noe.. Serious sia...' hahaha
he kept on wanting to box me. I'm not a punching bag ok. haha
PCCG carried on wit maths. Did CHIJ Papers. Haha. There's a sambal stain on my paper. It's kinda funny. Luckily on zizie saw it. Haha.
Den i waited for 1345 bell.. And as soon as it went off, i smiled a jovial smile. haha . It's time for LUNCH!!
zizie and me, waited for Fatin, Naq rushed off home coz of some matters. After Fatin got out of the 4e5 cage of boredom, we proceed on to canteen for our meal. haha.
ate quite a no. of stuff. We're hungry damn it.
haha. Den heard that Nix was goin to jam in the Music room. Fatin had to go for remedial and zizie and me went to the music room.
Had lotsa fun. hearing them play songs and all. haha. I want to chop off their arms!! So talented. Cool. Haha. Esp Faizal and Ahmad. Wah kao. They play like they've been wit that particular instrument since they're in their moms' wombs. haha. Dunno lah. Mebbe it juz happens if u hav the interest and determination. haha.
Well, went home with the brother of mine.
Karaoke a bit wit my mom as soon as i reach home.
Den onned the comp.
Download songs.
Organise all my documents, files and notes and book and threw wateva was junk.
haha. Ano now I am relaxing a bit, before continuing on my hw.
Haha.
Homework for today>>>
- Ucapan
- Physics WS
-CHIJ Papers

>> seems like not much but guaranteed I won't complete them.
>>> Laziness. U noe. Simply laziness.

10:10 PM



Listening to Jay Chou's Yi Si Tan Bo.

Keep thinking to myself whether the change I made was good
I keep reassuring myself it's good alright
Nevertheless I have people who keep on coming to me to ask me why?
Why the change? What's wrong?
And they start assuming...
Every actions have their consequences, every actions have their reasons to it
Agree no?
I wish I was more like my brother. Happy go lucky. Never talk about personal stuff. Everything about him is so straight to the point. Nothing is ever so personal. Everything in his life is just as it is supposed to be. Yeah he retained in sec 3 coz of darn english bad score. However he manage to regain his conscience and pulled up his socks higher. I envy him yet I admire him. He is so everything perfect. Near to perfect that is. Why do I have to go through such an emotional phase in life, more emotional than what my brother is facing? Coz I am a girl? Coz I am made of the weaker sex? That is so not fair. Oh nothing in life is fair by the way. I agree to that.
Maybe It's just me. I am like this. Therefore I am facing difficulties on my own will. On my own actions. Maybe that's the reason I change a lot. A lot of times. I keep on trying to change myself. But I will eventually come back to square one. and that is quite irritating. Definitely utterly irritating. Maybe I should try to stop sighing, tho I dun show much of that, but I am sighing deep inside. Tho i keep telling ppl to think positive, i dun do that. Tho I tell ppl to always smile, I myself am not smiling that frequently. Coz at times I dun think there's any purpose in smiling at all at a certain point of time. Sometimes I hate myself too. But when I see or hear ppl hating themselves, I'll frown and feel like slapping that person and tell him or her off not to eva hate themselves. Coz u live for a purpose. There's not a single reason u should hate urself. Argh. I dunno why I am so expressive tonight. I just need to get out of this bedsheetz and get back to where I belong. Maybe today's Sunday. Maybe the best day of expressing things. I just dunno anymore.
Oh well... let's just go thru life as it is shall we...


=stop fretting=

10:42 PM




i am pissed. Really I am. [haha]

11:42 PM


Who's phone is ringing?

11:42 PM


Sports' Day Aftermath

11:41 PM

today.
went to Police Academy to watch NPCC Day Parade.
haha. Always had to sit down, stand up, sit down, stand up. For guest arrivals, for guard of honor arrival, for national anthem, pledges... haha. like wat sia.
haha. The parade was fine, 4 cadets from the parade down... and everything else was ok. Hear that. Was OK. Not really up to standard, but average ah. Cannot go wow. so yarh... around 1 hr the cadets had to stand there. wind blow blow.
pathetic. only get a small red bean bun and a bottle of mineral water.
den the Guest of Honor made her speech. She was practically reading from a script. It was too boring to be true. Haha. Hormat. March pass. 14 steps to the front. Then march out.
Den got Toy Soldiers Act. Very cute. They dressed up in red, like real toy soldiers. All of them got thick make-up on. Red round blush on their cheeks. Den wen they sedia, it was very cute. They lifted up their left leg to the side, then banged it down to the ground, and their head shook like some cartoons character wen they collide to one another.

haha.
then there was this canine act, where this dog, haha, was spose to fine explosives. Den like nuthing wow. After that got scenario, got gun shots, real gun shots, then this dog had to rip of the hands of that gun shotter. Hmm, not impressive but still, it's not in real life. If it's a real life situation like for example i'm walking aimlessly at Geylang den suddenly hear gunshots, haiyoh NIGHTMARE sia. *Shivers*

heard from Naq zizie's at Fatin's house. Yeah read zizie's stuff. She is currently finally starting mid year revision. Fatin, haha lazy bum ass.. (",) gi blajar lah fatin!! haha [mcm aku tak lazy bum ass gitu]
i miss out this weekends with my frens a lot. Uwek. I miss them. sob sob.
but still manage to take a coupla neo prints with them a few days ago.
haha.

--- as soon as i reached home, i settled down to on the comp. and here i am, chatting with 'i'm alone' and typing in my blog, blogging. Hmm Khaldun is not online, how am i spose to pass him the ucapan and syarahan. Haha. Oh well can do tomorrow.
---- I miss Jay Chou's voice too.
>> listening to him rite now, ahh wat a relief to the ears.

= K mid years' around the corner, gotta buck up else, i'm stuck forever. Said wana go JC. So must try and be determined. Not try. It's a MUST=

Junior Colleges Here I come!!!

10:53 PM



Sports' Day was cock.
Of coz it is. Haha. Came uber late.
Den Mr Pay so stoooooopid Sports' Day late oso consider detention. Stooopid sia. Like I got nothing else better to do. I am so sorry, abang. Haha. Da bus fault ah!
Ok ok.. it was entirely my fault. Yarh. Serious. If I never carry on my sleep at 0530 we would never be late rite.
Got scolded by father. Wah kao, he nag like my mother sia.
haha. oh well... if i am a mother maybe i'll be like them. Haiyah cannot complain wat.. They are concerned.
I am their LAST child after all. Cannot blaim them entirely.
I have a part to play. Being the last child is a bless. I get to see the world a lot later, when the world is evolving slowly into a better future. Heng I was never born in those Adolf Hitler and dat Maria Hertogh time... haiyoh can nightmare sia. Thank You the Almighty. But right now the most fearful thing I can think of is for THAT DAY to come, which no one knows when. Have to be prepared, but I dun see lotsa teenagers being prepared. They are becoming stoooopidier and stoooopidier.
Loitering, havocing, wat else, tattooing, erm, all those illegal stuff dat is prohibited by the laws of my Islamic religion.
Haiyoh. Mebbe before thinking bout them, should think bout myself first. Am I walking towards the right path?
Am I being what I am supposed to be?
Am I?
I think A bit a bit ah... sometimes not. And I need to change that.
wait i see my mom off first...

"ok back"
wah it's so dark... later got tuition.. i hope it won't rain at that time.
Sharifah Aini on TV. haha.. she is so fake. but so daring to potray herself on the TV.
haha big boobs woah... how can ppl live with big stuff..hahaha u muz be laughin and frowning rite now, fatin
hahaha
eh that's the truth wat.. sometimes i wonder. Ppl who have "babats" all over the place, dare to wear something so body fitting and all... aren't they even ashame?
i wuld rather be flat.. haha.. not that flat ah... later ppl mistake me for a guy, mampos seh...
sian ah, why am i even talking bout this... if publish this i wonder wat ppl who are even reading my blog would be thinking bout me..
" She sick or wat?"
hahaha.. alah dats how i talk with my frenz oso wat...
so for me... how i blog is exactly how i talk...
there's this article bout Blogging not showing the real persona of the writer. Hmm.. that person so hypocrite. So far, all my frens' blogs are all them, i notice... maybe some wen to overboard with their chymz english. haha which is fascinating i must say.... den i can make my own notes to my english vocab.. and ENHANCE my knowledge.. haha
wat the foook am I typiin...
harlemakz... how can i pass my english at this rate.

the way she moves she's like a belly dancer--- *



5:53 PM



I am listening to Natural Woman by Aretha Frankin. That song really suits my current atmosphere. Silence. Windy. You make me feel like a natural woman.

I went off from school quite early today. DNT was really a get-away. Actually I came in empty handed. Never did my homework. I pretended to be very busy drawing juz now. But actually I was sketching sth irrelevant to DNT. I was drawing 'HAIR' haha. Oh well at least I did a teeny weeny bit of DNT. That is sketching out the development part. I am lagging. 2 steps behind. I am.

Ahmad never come. Faizal absent. Afiq sick. Irah Signed out. Trust Hazmi to believe Khairel that they came, and Khairel tricked Hazmi and told him "Cher, wait for them ah. They still haven't come" Everyone else who knew the real story juz kept quiet, giggled a bit here and there.
Den we thought Hazmi got Khairel's joke already, but then... haha he set up his laptop, he said good afternoon to all of us, erm if i am not wrong it was 5 times he said good afternoon to us, coz Khairel was playing a fool with Hazmi. After that, then came the farnie part. "Ok we will wait for them, they're still not here yet, for the mean time..."

and everyone in the class juz had to burst out laughing for he has been tricked by the trickmaster, Khairel. Oh well, MR Hazmi juz had to smiled his 'paisehness' off...
haha

I was really glad that I didn't get scolded or anything. I am even relieved to say that I am not running for any events on sports' day tomorrow, which will be held at the Tampines Stadium. Have to reach there by 0715... Lecehz... Dat means have to stop around Lina's area there then from there... have to walk to Stadium. Or better, I should stop in front of Tampines Library then walk to Tampines Stadium. Haiyah either ways, i still have to walk. Sianz.

"No uniforms are allowed tomorrow. Everyone must wear their house t shirts with shorts"
this is the part where I most dread. I hate wearing school P.E t-shirts!!!!
argh....

how how how...

oh well, i think i juz wear it, it's only one day what, but still!!
The idea is fucking shytty.. haha
ok... no big deal. Just wear ok..
den tomorrow got tuition over at Kovan. Around 4 lyke dat.
Den go back to rivervale plaza for my maths tuition.
Den i better be sleeping coz next up, the day after, have to NPCC day parade at... dunno where, sumware in the afternoon.
Ah... again... dread dread dread...
have to wear NP Uniform. FULL UNIFORM.
hot hot hot.
hope i am not FULL tomorrow.
haha. in other words, hope i am not 'boncet' on Saturday that is. Coz i have to wear that 'cool' unifrom which is not comfortable whenever I wear it. Coz why? Coz I have grown fatter over the years and the uniform juz refuse to agree wit me.
Haha
oh yarh.. i still need to get the skirt altered. The hem is pulling off.
Darn, i only have two days more to do that.
Oh heckk, tomorrow can do. I have 11 morn until 3 plus to get that thing done.
I wish zizie naq and whoever else is running all the best.
haha. Reason why I am not running is coz i am reserving my 'running talent' in JC.. *wink*
haha.. I really hope I get to Nanyang JC or Tampines JC or Temasek JC or Meridian JC or any near JC will do. As long as a college is where I end up.

BUCK UP or FUCK OFF.
-Cool-

3:25 PM



yeah very sleepy.
Maths very sleepy.
Physics very draggy.
English very lazy.
Malay very happy.
POA very sleepy.

haha.. die.

listening to Jay rite now. Juz came back home. Straight away, after changing clothes, I on this damn comp and start to surf surf surf. Found out a coupla new webbiez....

tintaprss.com
tamancikgufilza.blogspot.com

and gmail.com sounds fun. I sent my karya to cikgu oredi. And it's gonna b publicised in tintaprss.com
haha. I wonder what other ppl's gonna comment on my not-so-wow karangan.

tapak tanganmu akan ku genggam
akan ku sentuh ketika sayu
untukmu akan ku semaikan cinta yang sejati tiada bandingan
dalam kerinduan ku sendiri
dalam kesyahduan kita hadapi
warisan wanita terakhir jiwa raga terserah
kau ingin milik segalanya
di mana kasihku tiada kau memberi
apa yang ku perlu
hanya kau dapat memberi
hanya satu yang ku pinta kasih...

congrats tu Khaldun for raiding the throne yet again... 2 times berturut turut.
Haha. Pembahas Terbaik ke per.................................. u're still this kecoh and merepek guy i noe.
haiyoh.

izzad, isa and anas tidak kurang versatilenyer.... haha. All of them won after all.

detention was plain. Couldn't sleep, couldn't talk. instead i am stuck with wat... POA?
haha... at one point i was being praised.. at another time Ms Lai wanted to slap me for being so clumsy.. haha.. farnie lady she is....
Anywayz... didn't go for P.E yet again. I hope Mr Ow noe bout it. and don't go de-mark my attendance for no reason... haha. Oh well.. i have ample time to think about 2.4km rite now.
I hope i pass coz den i no need to go for another round and i can play around with frenz....
haha.
Who would want to go for a re-try? oh well... only ppl like Hydil would want to.
Oh yar Hydil nvr come to school, like Lyziana, Hanna and Khairel signed out. He looked really worn-out in the early part of school.
Tuition's up in about 30 mins. Should I go and bathe> or should I go and eat. haha
i think i'mma go and eat first.
Yeah zizie! We, anti-assumptioners!! hahaha
imagine eh, the two of us, one short and one fat, walking around with sign boards and written on them are things like 'Stop Assuming!' or even 'Assumptions are bad for health!! Gone Assumptions Gone!"
haha.. farnie sight.

'pada syurga di wajah mu di penghujung rindu...'
di persimpangan terlena di ambang wati, usah pasti, luka dilukai.
slamat jalan romeo hanya untuk mu sayang
suci dalam debu siapa di hati mu
tiara fiona bonda....
pada syurga di wajah mu di penghujung rindu..."

-Ghau Ghau-

6:47 PM



Use simple English, please
My mind will try to tell those people who are so Chymz
It makes me not understand things instantly
That will bring about confusion
Mebbe the problem lies with me
My vocab is not wide enuff
My grammar sucks big time
My oral is dooooooomed
Haha.
How am I spose to go out and join the working world after my studies?
mebbe I am suitable for background workz
Ahah. I dunno. I still dunno wat to be when I grow up or when I am that age.
U noe. That age.
Or mebbe I think to simple on complicated matters and think to complicatedly on simple matters.

"Mana tempatku di dunia? Tepuk dada tanyalah selera"
Kiniku mengenali arti hidup yang diberi
Dunia jadi saksi liku-liku kan ku harungi
"Tidak lagi ku di situ"
"Tiba waktu aku tiada, tidak akan daku sesali, daku hidup cara ku sendiri"


Oh yar...
reminded me of this book I borrowed.
It's about being in another world. That other world everything else is the opposite.
The rich become the poor, the crazy become a normal being. Your enemy got married to your boyfriend. Your friend died but instead it should be you. Your parents who are not well off became a Big Minister in ur area. And your humble old village turned into a whole lotta skyscrapers with lotsa buildings offering sexy prostitutes. Your roommate becomes a sexy waitress in that other world and when she met you, she don't seem to recognise you wen you talked to you. Wen she said that you can't be my friend, if you are her, then you should have a tattoo at your right thigh, coz we are the "night butterflies".
Then wen u realise everything is so diff, ur anger begin to splurge out coz ur enemy took away ur lover, fought with her, and didn't even notice you have came back to reality with your white gown tattered and torn. And ur enemy is ur very own retarded sis.
yeah. Should go on about it, but i think i recommend u all out there this book.
Book Title: Dunia Kedua
Written By: Mishar
Description of Book Front Cover: Lotsa Face Expression
"Apabila Ilusi Menggapai, Dia Lalu Hilang Dalam..."





11:11 AM

Morn...

Dya noe that I hate the use of '!'?
haha
It is quite irritating at times. Very irritating most times. Not that I have sth against it actually. Just the way I think it potrays someone.
Erm. Mebbe it's not that bad after all. It's good for essays on narratives.
Except that wen it is used appropriately I guess.
Then I can consider it ok.

Oh well. For today spose to have study grp. but then laziness striked me o f f.
I slept until 3 plus.
then i did my stuff.
Practically nothing done.
Just watched tv. Finally had time to watch as much programmes than before.
I re-read vol 8 of Fruits Baskets.
Waited for my turn to use the comp. But if my brother didn't use the comp, all thanks to him for getting all the cool songs.
haha. now I have more variety to wat to listen to.
But Jay's still the best.


Ok my mother juz nagged a t m e.
Gotta go.
Checkmate.

2:07 AM



Haha. I know this might sound lame. But when I listen to Jay Chou's songs, I feel much much better. Hmm.
My headache's gone. But the feeling just now was terrible. I coughed and felt like puking. But I just could not puke. Haha.
Thanks to Amalina, Athirah; they've been a great help. Bought me a bottle of mineral water and panadol. Haha. i'm so touched.
Daryl asked me how come I listen to Jay Chou. Oh well, I just had to listen to him. I'm fated to do that. Den he said it's cool coz Jay Chou is like one of the coolest being on earth. He can play lotsa musical instruments and his piano skills are superb. he can even beatbox and dance well. Digg dat.
I wouldn't like one person just coz that person is good looking. Haha. There surely has got to be a reason to why I would like a being. Mostly the reason would be that, that person is very cool and interesting to know. Yeah. I really think Jay Chou is one damn cool and interesting guy. I am so relieved to know such a person existed. Haha. Before Jay Chou, Justin Timberlake conquered my mind. Haha. Both of them somehow, have quite the same personality. They can beatbox, they can dance, they can write cool music, they are both damn talented. And both of their names start with J. Haha. Jay-Juna-Justin.
hahaahahaa.. crapz.

Anyway, I want to make it clear, maybe ppl might think i am, wat, following the trend nowadays that is [what i heard ah] chinese guys are beginning to attract malay girls. But on actual fact i have always thought that chinese guys are way better than malay guys in a lotta ways since I was in primary school. I have more chinese guy frenz back in those years. I only had like, wat, 2 malay guy frens who's in my class and the rest were chinese guys. From there, my life evolved around Chinese frenz. Even my malay girl frenz was limited. I was much closer to chinese ppl in junior years. When i entered secondary school, i began to be friends with more malays. Haha. And here I am rite now. My life currently evolves no where.

Hey. Do I have any homework to complete? ahah. why am I even asking you? You've got completely no idea.
Hmm..
let's try recall today's events.
Mostly I slept and felt really unwell, so I'll try my best to recall everything.

Combined Humanities - Had test on China Cultural Revolution but had to fluked it coz it was damn confusing and hard for me.
Mother Tongue - went to the comp lab to get answers for 5 year series. then tampered with my links in my blog. Found out that a fren of mine has a new blog. Linked her. Then linked Cikgu Filza
Chemistry - Organics Chemistry, interesting and easy topic. More about alkenes and alkanes.
recess - felt really terrible. ate fish and egg and ice tea. den felt cold but heaty inside. symptoms of fever.
English - terrible'er' haha.. headache headache. read the newspaper but i think i was just looking at the pictures in the articles. Didn't focus. Mrs Tan, fortunately, didn't check my news journal, coz it's not even completed or anything. Wouldn't want to disappoint her. I am a good girl.
DNT - legs gone weak. eyes watery. cheeks and whole face just had to burn. felt really dizzy. during the 3 periods, Mr Hazmi didn't mind me sleeping in class coz i guess i really look sick. wen i leaned on Athirah's arms, she was shocked coz i felt really hot.
dismissed - Ama went to buy me a panadol. didn't go for maths reinforcement. Felt so ridiculous. But in the end i went back home to sleep, rest after mr ng told me to. Told me to finish up Coral sec paper by tomorrow.
slept from 3 plus till 7 plus.
watched tv, eat, felt dizzy but now, after i've listened to jay chou, the ache seemed to have simmered down. Haha. Farnnie.
Now i think i need to start on my homework.
List:
- coral sec maths paper
- chemistry [notes]
- dnt development
- NCO Course Manual
- Training Schedule for tomorrow.

With a knife in mouth, talk until the folk songs are worn down
Grievances of a thousand years, canceled out with a stroke of a pen
Life is careless and I bend down
History's reincarnation, I'll forget it in a flash

11:07 PM




My Jay Collaged - Juna

7:38 PM

Hi There Blog.

My house filled wit the sound of the television. My nose currently smelt the fragrance of fried spring chicken, drooling me non-stop coz I haven't consume anything since the past few hours. Hmm.

I just saw someone signin in. Putting my close fren's picture as his display pic. haha. He really like my fren a lot. I wonder if that's plain obsessions or craziness going on. I don't know. I've never been so into a person yet. So I don't know how that guy is feeling. He told me he didn't want to let go the feeling of liking my fren. I just can't help but to somehow 'erk' at that statement. I know I m being mean but think... now's the time to really concentrate on studies, coz that's wat a teenager should make a priority. For me, Love-relationships-Obsessions are part of a teenage life, filling in sweet and sour spices into the dish. Where the main subject is concern, those matters are only to fascinate and liven up one's life with colours. But for me, I need those colours to fly for my major examinations.
Oh well [notice how I use this word as a substitute for 'However'] diff ppl diff tastebuds. Diff life diff style. Diff theories diff practicals. Diff philosophy diff psychology. Diff beings diff worlds.
Diff everything Diff anything.

hey but to think of it, again, the colours in my life have to be the rhythms and rhymes, the search for time. Haha. I can't live without music, I can't live without time.
Very deep indeed. Deep Deep thinking.

I hate it wen ppl tries to run away from reality. Assuming that life's all about them, them being so attitude-ish, them being 'rebellious', rebel without a cause. That's why Ella and me are always mocking those girls or guys. We would do something so lame like crossing over a barricade using only one leg, and declare 'Oh my god! This is so cool. Look how Rebellious I am! I crossed over the barricade!!" den we would laugh and carry on. Haha. Lame ppl always have lame excuses. U see. I have seen ppl who has the most happiest family on earth, but they make it so complicated by rebelling without a cause, hoping that it would take effect. Eventually wen I found out that all those stories were fraud, I can't help but to take back the trust at those people person and feel pity for their parents to have such sons and daughters [mostly daughters] to cook up some stoopid stories so as to get accepted by others. Maybe wat they were thinking is that 'ooh I must have some interesting sad stories, so that ppl sympathise me and those rebels can accept me as a fren and together, we'll be so cool."
wat dya think. that's lame isn't it?
wow. Now I smell banana fritters. Yum. But I duno ware it comes from. Not from my kitchen coz no one's dere. I dunno if it's from one of my neigbour's but it could be. Coz my storey, the whole stretch are malay families. And Malay families to often make banana fritters.

Haha. How funny my thoughts can run, my fingers can type so fast as I my thoughts flow.
I dunno if all of the above mentioned made any sense to ya, dearest blog, coz i dun think u understand. U're all made up of HTML codes, URL's and encoding things... that's all u eva noe. So blog hoppers, if u by any chance hopped across my blog, and read this story board, haha... Sorry for those 'misunderstandings'. Coz u might be a stranger to me, u might not know wat's evolving around me.
From teenage love - rebellious teenagers- nice banana fritters- apology to blog hoppers
haha.. that's how complex the wonderful human mechanism can produce.

All detailed and worthwhile. I'mma go and hop out now. All of a sudden, there's this sudden tug in my stomach. Need to go find food. Haha. Till then, I guess this is it.



>>True Stories Don't Usually Last<<

4:34 PM

It's already five plus. Ella and me still up and about. Me with Jay, she's with her 'future' bf. Haha.
I am currently listening to Garden Festival sang by Jay. He's got such a sexy voice in that
song.
Hey I really think my biological clock has gone wrong. Maybe I am not experiencing this alone, there's much more worst conditions out there. Haha.
U noe wat. I will never do the hw given but I'll do something else. For an instance, if I have maths hw, i would not do it but do my DNT instead which might not be due any time soon. If I have English News Journal to complete, I'll be putting myself very busy trying to finish Maths Worksheets which Mr Ng would have gone thru the day before. Then I'd make myself busy reading English Narratives [not that impt, coz this is not a task given by Mrs Tan] wen I have News Journals and RIF to finish and to be handed in like the following week. Then wen I triy to finish my TYS Physics, in actual fact I should have done my Chemistry TYS coz that's the real hw. Not physics. And wen I have to finish my DNT, I'll start sketching abstract stuff that is more meant for an art student. Haha. Funny. I can laugh to myself even.

Well Well.
I can do nothing to stop it, can I?
Can I treat this as a weird habit?
Odd habit?
[melts at Jay Chou's voice, played over n over again]
haha.

Tomorrow, I shouldn't plan for tomorrow. Coz for sure, I know, it won't turn out to be the way I had planned it. But the opposite will occur.
An Example, I told myself, ok, today have to stay up, be it even if I must not sleep; I really need to finish the 10 exploration of Ideas so that I can show it Mr Hazmi the next day. However hell did I do it? no i didn't.
But It was just last Weds, I didn't plan to stay up to do DNT, but I managed to finish it that day, without the intention to do it. Haha.
Goes the same with predicting whether I pass real well or score really badly.
Like that time, I thought I was a true failure. Coz the qns were so hard to handle. But backfired. I passed amazingly.
then there was this malay exam, tot I had breezed thru, but found out my answers were not perfectly rite. Almost failed, just passed that paper. Haha. So I am so Jinxed at predictions.
Never too plan anymore.
Haha.

[melts again, *Jay Chou* ]


>>>Just won't happen if I ask it to happen<<<

5:09 AM



I noe. Jay Chou may not look like any handsome dudes or any cute ppl person. But I just like to see him. Coz he is so cool. He is so cool and he is so cool. Cool.

Haha. More like this blog, is going to be some device used to express my feelings for Mr Chou.

Oh well, just now in school there was a debate. Two debate sessions. I was the time keeper for the second session. Which was more Gah. Khaldun is also one cool guy. He still holds his throne as the pembahas terbaik. Nura wasn't half as bad. She was very equipped. I would never be able to join debate coz I am SOOO not good at all these theories and self philosophy and cross reference. Hah. Just not me to talk much about stuff relating to life.
It was entertaining back then, didn't attend NPCC. Worthwhile, coz got it all videotaped. Haha. I hope the finals will be more successful den today's.
Later on in the evening, I had tuition with my brother. It was friggingly keboringan yang tidak mengenang oreng punye jaser... HAha.. aper jaser ader... waktu kau sedang sakit, mau mampos saper yang operate kau? Aku doctor LAbu. Haha aleh aleh ajer tu...

I'm afraid to say I love you. I can only afford to say I Like you...

1:17 AM



Reading Ella's blog just make me wana cry. I don't know. I feel so sad. In addition to listening Dangerously in Love 2, water starts to conquer these vision device. Hmm. When to think of it, she's my fren, her affairs are not meant to be interfered, i can't help it, but to like... be there for her. I just don't know how to console people. That's the problem here with me. I am not naturally made of love, sense of affection and sympathy. I just don't know how to be in love. I have not experience any true love or watsoeva. Guess, not matured enough to think about all this. When I see my frens being obsessed with someone, I think to myself, how do you be obsessed with someone? Maybe, I am someone who likes to change her mindset often and don't go for only one. Face this. I am the one who likes everything, if I could. Ahah. That's not fickle. Maybe it's just not wise. Me? Wisdom? don't go along, even though I think to myself I am wiser enough at this point of time compared to a coupla years back den.

Love - Starts being mushy, I'm still a girl so I don't care for now if I talk about this
Love is something I have never felt before. U know, wen there are some songs telling me that Love is many splendid things, Love are hurtful things, or I can't do this thing called life without u or even you are everything to me I just can't help to think what's so good about being in love? Is it just something that people have in them jsut to keep themselves occupied? Maybe something that brings about the ups and downs of life. Maybe... even Love is something that just comes by itself and you just happen to know it. I think the word love is not yet found in my dictionary, coz I don't dare to "Love". Just yet. You might think, 'Oh c'mon girl. Your life's so friggin boring. Get a Life!'
I'm coping just enough to achieve wateva i wana achieve at this stage. That is to score well for my O level and be a happy person as I can be. I don't need love? Erm.. that sounds so Egoistical. Maybe I need some love, that would mean the support I need from my close relations. I wonder how my future partner's gonna be like. I may not be the kind who talks this way. who talks about marriage. who talks about life. who talks about theories on affairs of the heart. Oh well it doesn't hurt one bit to talk about it.
...
ok now I totally forgot wat I want to talk about love, hah.

Assume
-I never want to Love-

1:08 PM



Ahah.. Believe it or not, I feel like getting the other 8 previous albums of his. Hah.
He's so cool. Cool he is. Definitely cool. COOL. hahaha.

You know if there would be a concert of his in Singapore. I'll be determined to go for it. Same for Peter Pan. Haha. Determined Determined.

Vincent lent me Incomparable. The whole thing is cool. I personally liked... 'Wai Po' and 'Luan Wu Cun Qiu'. Woo, cool vidz.
Anyway, every song by him is cool. Cool is everything.
In that album. Can't wait to get 'Common Jasmine Orange', 'Ye Hui Mei' and others. I want to be a fan of his! Hah. Sound so lame but oh heck... at least now I have another thing to look forward to rather den sit my butt off cramming for 'O's... He is a real entertainer and talented person in the music industries. Being able to play the guitar, flute, piano, jazz drums and cello, think of it.. he started to play the piano at three and he isn't even good academically. However he can still survive coz he got something to fall back on. When I read back the translation to every song that the songwriter, Vincent Fang, made for Jay's songs... haha. Some are very complicated yet very 'indah seribu bahasa'. Jay's rapping is so stylo. His chinese has this very cool accent which I think the Chinese native ppl wouldn't understand that well, coz all his pronunciation of each and every word are like sticking to each other. oh. Have I commented on his video clips? All of them are just so wow. One thing I realise, he likes to include a feature of Handphone. Haha. Oh well. Some trademark. Good in dancing, cool rapping, cool fashion, nice hair, flawless face, nice smile. Hmm. Let me find a bad point.
I think I've said it, but it seems like I put in a good word for him. His pronunciation of the accent. Hah. And wat else. Oh yar. The girls in each video clip are not up to his standard. Haha. They should take someone like Jolin Tsai. Too bad. Patty's in the way. haha.

Maybe I should pay attention to Jay Chou more. Coz I wish to know more about him and his music. Well, I guess a new beginning of this year [tho it's near one third of the year] found me a new idol on the list as well as a new hairstyle in the making. Hah. Been thinking about having his kinda hair. Thought it didn't turn out the way I wanted [u noe, Jay's Hair] but it was kinda cool went my view turned me round. Ppl noticed instead of me telling them, 'Oh I want to make it look like Jay's' Haha. Cool Cool. Can't wait for another hairstyle.

K den it's already wat... 0332 early in the morning. Should I go and rest or stay up some more to listen to Jay? Hmm. I guess I should rest. Tomorrow there'll be GPA finals somewhere at Somerset. Gotta reach there before 1230hrs. Don't be wanna be late don't I?
Oh well. If I am late... I'm not going to do anything only to realise it as a mistake and determine not to do it again.

ritez. Time to publicise, make known and Jay, I'm hearing you.

3:14 AM