Reading Ella's blog just make me wana cry. I don't know. I feel so sad. In addition to listening Dangerously in Love 2, water starts to conquer these vision device. Hmm. When to think of it, she's my fren, her affairs are not meant to be interfered, i can't help it, but to like... be there for her. I just don't know how to console people. That's the problem here with me. I am not naturally made of love, sense of affection and sympathy. I just don't know how to be in love. I have not experience any true love or watsoeva. Guess, not matured enough to think about all this. When I see my frens being obsessed with someone, I think to myself, how do you be obsessed with someone? Maybe, I am someone who likes to change her mindset often and don't go for only one. Face this. I am the one who likes everything, if I could. Ahah. That's not fickle. Maybe it's just not wise. Me? Wisdom? don't go along, even though I think to myself I am wiser enough at this point of time compared to a coupla years back den.
Love - Starts being mushy, I'm still a girl so I don't care for now if I talk about this Love is something I have never felt before. U know, wen there are some songs telling me that Love is many splendid things, Love are hurtful things, or I can't do this thing called life without u or even you are everything to me I just can't help to think what's so good about being in love? Is it just something that people have in them jsut to keep themselves occupied? Maybe something that brings about the ups and downs of life. Maybe... even Love is something that just comes by itself and you just happen to know it. I think the word love is not yet found in my dictionary, coz I don't dare to "Love". Just yet. You might think, 'Oh c'mon girl. Your life's so friggin boring. Get a Life!' I'm coping just enough to achieve wateva i wana achieve at this stage. That is to score well for my O level and be a happy person as I can be. I don't need love? Erm.. that sounds so Egoistical. Maybe I need some love, that would mean the support I need from my close relations. I wonder how my future partner's gonna be like. I may not be the kind who talks this way. who talks about marriage. who talks about life. who talks about theories on affairs of the heart. Oh well it doesn't hurt one bit to talk about it. ... ok now I totally forgot wat I want to talk about love, hah.
